5:30am Poetry.....

Today was a bittersweet day for me.  On one hand, the bad one unfortunately, it was tough.  The decision was made that it would best if we put my cat, Katie, to sleep.  This was extremely hard on everyone, especially my sister, because we've had her for 18 years.  That's so long that I dont even remember getting her, she was just always there.  I didn't see her as a pet, I saw her more as another sister, which is odd I suppose.  The other rough thing is that it was also my grandfather's birthday, who unfortunately passed away 3 years ago.  Now if you know me and have sat through my long (and probably boring) story about how much my Grandfather meant to me, you'd understand why it's a hard day for me to get through.

On the other hand, I had a few positives throughout the day.  My mom bought me Where the Wild Things Are on dvd for me because she knows how much I love that movie.  Another thing that was amazing was the fact that I finally got myself a longboard, it was much needed to.  I never felt so relaxed before.  I even came up with some words (poem I guess you can call it?) while I was riding around today. So here it is:

Volume's up

My wheels go down

I push off from home on a journey for the day

My left foot points forward a slight bit

Trying to hold my ground

While being ready to take the next step

My right foot planted firmly across the tape

Shoulders even, head to the left

My body is neither moving forward

Nor backward

I'm traveling sideways through the moment

Every push I take moves me into the future

Large, powerful, aggressive kicks

Necessary, but moves you faster through life

Small, light, gentle steps

Conforts but can get you stuck in the past

I feel my headphones blaring rhythm into my heart

A snare hits followed by a chord and I become euphoric

Everything moves in slow motion

I feel as though the Earth's pushing off me

I no longer have legs, just pedals

I'm no longer skin and bone

Just wood, metal, and rubber

Mixed with some cold air an asphalt

I am a skateboarder

I am skateboarding.

yeah, pretty lame i know, but it felt amazing just to be riding around all day....

k, i saved the mushy lubby dubby stuff for last, so feel free to skip this part.  I hung out with the girl today (I like making you people guess, its fun)  she knows who she is, she reads this thing, so i guess thats all that matters. 

time for the sappy poem, deal with it.

You got me

You got me good

I thought I had it planned right

I thought I understood

Tied myself up with string, rope, and chains

Locked myself away, from feeling like I should

I was scared, scared to climb to new heights

So scared I built an thick glass wall

I tried so hard not to let anyone in

But that didn't work out at all

Because with one sentence, one breathe, just 9 little words

You've made that glass fall.

Now each restraint is breaking

Thread by thread, link by link.

You've infiltrated my mind

I can't even think

Without hearing your voice

Without hearing you sing

Six years we went our ways

Six years we never said a thing

But now your back

And I face uncertainty

But I'm no longer scared

I'm just weak in the knees.