Its a war of the sexs dont let it get blurred....

So I'm sitting here at my dining room table, enjoying my disgusting hot pocket and drinking my gatorade, when I came across this article on a World of Warcraft blog I like to read (don't hate). Anyway, the article is named Sugar and Spice, Snakes and Snails, and its a breakdown of how people in reality according to gender. (http://ferarro.blogspot.com/2010/03/sugar-and-spice-snakes-and-snails.html)

Now please, take the time and read that article. It has a wonderful point of view, well organized and structured, and for the most part I do agree with what she is saying. But only one thing its biased from a female perspective. Not in a negative way, but it makes you sympathize with the male population.

Okay. Maybe not really.

But thats not the point. The point I'm trying to get to is that guys can be just as evil as girls, sometimes to the point where you're disgusted just to be around them.

Yeah, guys do take care of conflicts in a shorter timespan that girls, for the most part, but that's only publicly. I, myself, am a very peaceful, loving person. So I tend to let any conflict drop as soon as I can convince the other party to do the same. But some of the horror stories that I've heard.

Yeah, girls will spread rumors, start shit on facebook, do whatever they can to try and destroy a persons social life. But some guys will go straight for the fucking throat. I'm not saying they'll try to kill you, but what I am saying is that they attack the spot that hurts the most, your heart. They will try to turn your own friends against you, blackmail you, even try to fuck your girlfriend/significant other if they hate you enough.

Girls attack one another through spite.
Guys use raw anger and hatred.


But enough about that, onto a different topic of that article that I really enjoyed. And that's the section about one of my lifelines, music.

You can tell a lot about people by the music they listen. Whether its from watching how they react when they hear one of their favorite songs. Or just by the lyrics that go into it, be it full of hatred and disgust, or passion and love. Personally, I love all music. Mainly just because I understand each individual song represents an emotion, and I can relate to that.

Perfect example is a song by a band named Zox. The one song they made entitle "Eventually" is a quite simple guitar progression (consisting of a total of 6 chords) but absolutely amazing lyrically.

So baby wont you be part of my fantasy?
'Cause I can't sit around and wait until "eventually"
Let me take you home and watch your garden grow
A little closer and I'll make it so you can't say no

And its making me crazy
to be your friend when your my fantasy
my fantasy.

Now if you can't relate to that, you should probably question your friendships then.
Because if you've ever had a best friend of the opposite gender YOUR GOING TO FALL IN LOVE WITH THEM

Plain and simple folks. And dont bullshit me and say "No, that's not true. They're like a brother/sister to me! I could never think of them like that!"

Bullshit.

You have, you may not realize right now, but you have. Guys especially. How many times have you sat there, on the phone, at like 3am, when you have work at 7, listening to you're friend bitch and complain how their boyfriend treats them like crap and you just think "MEEEEEEEEEE!!!! YOU NEED TO DATE MEEEEEEEE!!!!!"

Girls I know you do the same thing too, but I do understand as to why you don't act on it....

You don't want to lose them

It's a scary thought when you realize what your life would be like without this person in it, but you have to realize, all bridges crumble, not matter how strong the foundation is, with the sands of time always moving, erosion is bound to occur. Your best guy or girl friend won't be there for you for the rest of their lives. And you wanna know why? Because they more than likely found a girl/boy to invest those emotions that were being otherwise wasted on you. In other words:

you will be replaced

harsh? yes.
uncalled for? maybe.
False? no.

I've seen it happen, even in my own relations with someone, but don't go and get upset. Hell, its more of a reason to believe in the title of this blog "Remember you will die, but don't forget to live"

So yeah, you might lose your friend down the road, and I'm telling you, you won't even realize they're missing till they're in another state. But don't waste those feelings, those raw emotions.

Because, hell, they're your best friend for a reason....They understand and love your being.


~T.T.

5:30am Poetry.....

Today was a bittersweet day for me.  On one hand, the bad one unfortunately, it was tough.  The decision was made that it would best if we put my cat, Katie, to sleep.  This was extremely hard on everyone, especially my sister, because we've had her for 18 years.  That's so long that I dont even remember getting her, she was just always there.  I didn't see her as a pet, I saw her more as another sister, which is odd I suppose.  The other rough thing is that it was also my grandfather's birthday, who unfortunately passed away 3 years ago.  Now if you know me and have sat through my long (and probably boring) story about how much my Grandfather meant to me, you'd understand why it's a hard day for me to get through.

On the other hand, I had a few positives throughout the day.  My mom bought me Where the Wild Things Are on dvd for me because she knows how much I love that movie.  Another thing that was amazing was the fact that I finally got myself a longboard, it was much needed to.  I never felt so relaxed before.  I even came up with some words (poem I guess you can call it?) while I was riding around today. So here it is:

Volume's up

My wheels go down

I push off from home on a journey for the day

My left foot points forward a slight bit

Trying to hold my ground

While being ready to take the next step

My right foot planted firmly across the tape

Shoulders even, head to the left

My body is neither moving forward

Nor backward

I'm traveling sideways through the moment

Every push I take moves me into the future

Large, powerful, aggressive kicks

Necessary, but moves you faster through life

Small, light, gentle steps

Conforts but can get you stuck in the past

I feel my headphones blaring rhythm into my heart

A snare hits followed by a chord and I become euphoric

Everything moves in slow motion

I feel as though the Earth's pushing off me

I no longer have legs, just pedals

I'm no longer skin and bone

Just wood, metal, and rubber

Mixed with some cold air an asphalt

I am a skateboarder

I am skateboarding.

yeah, pretty lame i know, but it felt amazing just to be riding around all day....

k, i saved the mushy lubby dubby stuff for last, so feel free to skip this part.  I hung out with the girl today (I like making you people guess, its fun)  she knows who she is, she reads this thing, so i guess thats all that matters. 

time for the sappy poem, deal with it.

You got me

You got me good

I thought I had it planned right

I thought I understood

Tied myself up with string, rope, and chains

Locked myself away, from feeling like I should

I was scared, scared to climb to new heights

So scared I built an thick glass wall

I tried so hard not to let anyone in

But that didn't work out at all

Because with one sentence, one breathe, just 9 little words

You've made that glass fall.

Now each restraint is breaking

Thread by thread, link by link.

You've infiltrated my mind

I can't even think

Without hearing your voice

Without hearing you sing

Six years we went our ways

Six years we never said a thing

But now your back

And I face uncertainty

But I'm no longer scared

I'm just weak in the knees.

Its kind of like smiling....

Hello there! It is I, Tall Tom! And im blogging now because, fuck it, I think everyone should be able to view my personal opinions and things that are going on in the world!

Quick Synopsis of myself:

I'm 21.

I skate and snowboard

I love music

I'm very thoughtful

And if you ever need anything I can possibly help with, don't be afraid to ask.

OKAY! now that thats done with. time to start my first entry. *crowd cheers*

Things have been pretty good lately, work is starting to pick up again, its getting warmer out which means everyones in an all around better mood, and I started talking with people I have not spoken to since high school, which in all honesty is pretty cool.  It's great to see they're reactions as to how we've all changed since then.  I mean, I used to be a very quiet, self composed, cautious kid. Now  I'm pretty much the opposite, very open, cautious but still agressive.

One of those people I mentioned (yes its a girl and if you dont know who it is, you obviously dont talk to me enough) has really helped me out in more ways then she could possibly fathom.  I stopped by packs of cigs, even though I do occasionally have one.  Going from 20 a day to 0 is a big gap, cravings do occur, and I'm not a fan of the patches.  I also started reconnecting with my appreciation for art/literature/movies/music once again.  

Bottom Line: I've just been a happier individual since this person came back into my life.

Anywho, I'm sure you're growing tired of me writing about this kind of crap so heres the excellence of this thing.

If you have a topic or problem or anything at all you would like me to write about feel free to either leave a comment here or send me a message on facebook.  I'm willing to talk about anything really.

Goodnight all!